I Disha… commonly known as Hijra. Transgender in the newspaper, I have to enter 'other' in the government form. Why should we order someone first, someone second, then us third? Why should women, men, and all others be like this? How much importance do you give to others etc.? So the word polysexual is being used now. I was also impressed by that word. So I also started identifying myself as 'Yes, I am one of this polygamous community…'. Of course, this word will take time to spread. But I think I should start with the name I want to be known by. In one of my poems I introduced myself as…
Bro... don't go to the photo.
I am not a women of your defination
I am, a part of polygamy.
What do you say?
Don't you understand?
Achcha OK.. I will explain it in simple language
... They call me Hijra.
Don't feel bad.
I don't feel bad either...
Oh,this is my identity.
And yes, long time ago I left my school
When did you study in school?
see I dont have any proof
I don't want that, the stamp on the paper.
I can also find it on the market.
What?
Asking about my income?
I beg in market
Of the goddesses and pir fakirs
Even I dance
why are you asking this again?
aree has been in it for generations.
So I do the same.
You say no, I've done that kind of job.
Life is not calculated.
Be alone, that too from the beast called Purusha.
Always keep reading.
It does not read that there was hunting...
He would leave a woman as a woman once,
But I don't want to leave the bug.
His fathers whereabouts hit me.
Well, the salary in the job is low.
Old age insecure
So, I came back to the herd.
And I want to live in a herd.
You have to follow the rules of the herd, see
Now more Echaru Nagas Baba
Kalpaishai does not want anything
Let me live for four days to please you…
There was something in it, anyway. So I will be limited in writing about the internal culture and traditions of my community. Because, in reaching you, I do not want to be alienated from my own people. In this matter, I want to express myself as a representative of my community. But I don't want to be labeled as a transsexual writer. Society, politics, economy, health, basic rights and duties, social consciousness, all these things affect me and my community, so it seems at this moment that opinions on them should also reach the masses.
Although the times are changing, even today, the polygamous society is seen in a certain mold. Alas! Poor thing! Or beyond the dirty, perverted, there is little to think of as a human being. For that, they have to know their way of life. I also think that there should be an emotional thought about their relationship, the relationship given to them by the guru-disciple tradition, their wife, mother, lover. There are difficulties with the so-called social frameworks that come with carrying out this relationship.
On the one hand, the government and society are seen opposing the so-called culture while giving the basic human rights of food, clothing, shelter and intercourse to this group under the pretense of accepting them as human beings. Due to the effect of physical, emotional and financial exploitation caused by this, the big question is how much humanity is being gained by this group. The definition of 'like means like' has to be changed. On such occasions, they also have pure feelings. I want that to reach us too...
There are millions of 'sub' worlds in the world around us. The boundaries of each subworth are as infinite as the sky. They are the same for the world of my community, to the spirit world. There are many 'directions', like me fighting each other in different fields to bring this world forward. I will try to present their struggles and successes in the following articles.
If you can take this world with me on this journey, it will be a great success for my writing. I only wish that you see me and people like me as human beings. I don't know where I fit into the grammar, syntax, writing style, and overall framework; But I want to make full use of this space that I got from my hands. We are good at setting criteria and it is not like I will fit everyone's criteria exactly. So I am starting this keeping in mind all those things.
Among the genres of writing, poetry is very close to me. Because that has become my voice till date. While expressing myself in poetry, I get more freedom than other forms of writing, so I express myself more through it. I think poetry will be a medium to convey my feelings to you...
I look rough, rustic
At my every turn, a fallen knot
Dry dough with thirsty hands
Still walking towards the light, seeing the dawn...
Thank you…!
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